As anyone, I would like to ask THE QUESTION. Why hurt someone else that way? Did it really help it? Did you think you'd enjoy?
The first times you feel... that you didn't deserve that. No way. But then, you unconsciuosly start protecting youserlf from all that shit. And you start hurting people as well. Is that the circle of life?
Think about it, that's the matter of this entry. I know that being questioned about you failures can be embarrasing, of course. But you should be the one to find out the reason. Even if it's just to be consistent with yourself. Don't let other's actions make you be someone you're not. Live your life.